I have been on an emotional roller coaster my whole life, I got married 1 year ago, uprooted again, moved to germany with husband (military) and then he tells me he isn’t sure he wants the responsibility of being married anymore, he wants to live his life by himself. I move to a friends house back in the states, been here 2 months, and have been so depressed. I don’t know how to pick up the pieces of my life, as he was my rock (we were best friends before we dated, dated for 5 years friends for 10 married for a year) he doesn’t want to talk to me much anymore cause it makes him mad and that I am always hurting. I live where I have no friends or family cept that one I live with. I work as a temp and I struggle to keep that job cause I just don’t want to go in anymore.
I went to get help, but I was told never to use your insurance for getting mental health assistance cause it comes back to bite you in the ass later in life (health insurance, federal jobs, clearances) cause those things make you sign waivers saying its okay to investigate that. : ( (I have worked, and most likely will work in federal jobs again)
But without my insurance, the health systems say it will be a while (month) till I might be able to see someone, what can I do in the mean time to get through this, without it destroying my life in teh mean time, (work and relationship with my current separated husband)? Please help.
October 29th, 2009 at 5:19 pm
Oh my god.. I’m so sorry for you. But you know what even though it all looks horrible now, it doesn’t have to be. AND I know that is so easy to say.. but it’s real. and if all you do is bust your a$$ every day to go to that job then do it !! Because that may be the one thing that will keep you sane!!!
He is not/was not your world. Sorry, you are and always will be your world. When you breathe in and out it has nothing to do with him. You gave too much of you power away. It’s ok, so many do when we love someone. We forget that we are first. So now it’s time to dust yourself off and now that every day is going to be easier. With bumps in the road.
Insurance really stinks..It’s pretty to look at and pay for
but god forbid if we use it. Your medical records are supposed to be sealed. However… that is not true when changing medical companies.. so yes it a screwed up cycle. But if you really feel like you need MUST have help then you get yourself help. Screw it. Stay alive …
Now find other friend.. do things in your community ( I know corny but get out) Also talk to people online.. you’d be surprised talking to someone who’s not involed in your situation a can be a breathe of fresh air for you. Just a crutch to get you thru this.. Use anything.. BUT don’t curl up in bed .. get online and CHAT
Answer some questions
I wish you well !!!!