I don’t understand whats wrong with me. I’m 23male and have so much in my life that I should feel fortunate about. I’m not blind to the world and can see the obvious. I know I’m very attractive. I have gotten every girl I want and currently have a girlfriend that is unbelievably attractive. Materialistically, I have everything I want, A gorgeous sporty car, a pimped out SUV with big wheels and all that stuff, and live waterfront on a lake in CT. The thing is, I don’t care about any of it. I cry every single day multiple times. I cry in the shower, I cry driving home from work and when I get home I lock myself in my bedroom turn the lights off, light a candle and cry. I used to cut my arms and have horrible, horrible bad thoughts all the time. Sometimes when I drive through an intersection I hope that a big truck will run the light and just tag me, ending the suffering that I feel. Please don’t say stupid shit, like see a doctor or you need help…I mean no shit, ya think… thats why I’m writing this on here. I really don’t understand why I feel like this. I have a degree in Finance, I’m smart and have a really good job. People always call me to hang out but I always say something like I’m still at work so I don’t have to go out. I am seeing a doctor and have been seince I was 17. I actually see 2. I take medication and I feel the best I have in years but I still cry. And yes, I have tried all sorts of them and this works the best. Please don’t suggest med’s. I workout a lot too, sort of a gym rat. However I’m a loner there. I just lift and run by myself. I guess I have this thought in my head that I missed out on my teen life. My parents got divorced when I was a senior in high school. They were married 17 years. Now my mom is married to my ex-next door neighbor and dad’s ex best friend. She’s not like that though, she’s very professional. I am so jealous of people i know because of the life they got to live earlier. I got a DUI my freshman year and ended up working full time and going to school full time to pay to drive. 400 a month for insurance not to mention other expenses. I feel I missed out because I never went out. I’ve never been single. I’ve been single for a total of 2 weeks since I was in 8th grade. I have had multiple girlfriends for years at a time. I just usually leave them for another girl and just start a new one. I get jealous of people who have had a promiscuous past because I haven’t. i’ve been pretty much a faithful BF. It really bothers me with my GF b/c she was extermely promiscuous and has been with a lot of my friends before I knew her. I look past it b/c I lke who she is as a person and not just for her looks. I think I’m gonna move to CA and go to grad school out there hoping for a 180 degree turn around. I just want to find myself and see what its like to be single, however I’m afraid to be alone because I never have been. I hate my life and would give up everything I have if it meant I could be happy. I feel like life isn’t worth it anymore. I missed out on the best time of my life and will never no what its like to have fun with little to no responsibility or worries. I am full of regret and don’t think I have much left in me or to look forward to. Please help. I’m not crazy or don’t need hospitalization. The main thing is I wish I was more promiscuous when I was in high school or college because thats all i want right now. I’m just so full of regret and jealously of the people that were, that makes me cry everyday.
8 Responses to “Please Help! I Can’t Stop Crying. I’m So Depressed its Making Me Sick.?”
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November 17th, 2009 at 1:58 pm
You see right. You have no reason to feel this way. Got extreme depression is caused by chemical imbalances in the brain, possibly a result of mental disorder. See a psychiatrist and explain that the drugs you are taking right now aren’t working. It will get better. I promise.
November 17th, 2009 at 2:22 pm
I know that you may be happy in your relationship, but it’s time to get out of it. It’s time for YOU to think things out. No matter what anyone says, spend more time on yourself. I’m sure you can think it through. I’m not gonna tell you good luck– you don’t need it. I know you can do this.
November 17th, 2009 at 2:24 pm
I feel that way too except i don’t have everything materialistically- i just wish i hadn’t screwed up so many times.
If you think going to another state will help then do it. just go with it and do the things you wanted to. Once you have the taste of it, you might not desire it anymore.
November 17th, 2009 at 3:11 pm
Well, I can relate to some of what you say….I never got to have a “wild and crazy” time either. I have only been with one man my whole life (my husband). It bothers me sometimes, but then I think about how lucky I am to have someone who loves me so much. As far as your other stuff goes, you should be thankful. I have had so much bad luck it is not even funny. I don’t have enough money to finish my bachelor’s degree and cannot get a loan (due to a bankruptcy that was inevitable due to a medical emergency that happened to me—-I was uninsured due to a prior medical condition (asthma) and could not (and still can’t get the insurance or medicine I need)….anyway, my husband’s ex-boss stole all of his 8 month salary and left the country. Now, he has no job (been job hunting for 4 months!) and we have no income. The economy is so bad that we can’t even get jobs at wal-mart stocking shelves….at least you have a job and a car. We have 1 car that breaks down. I have been doing temp work on and off all over the city (when the jobs are available)…I have to ride on the public bus for at least an hour just to get to a lame job that pays $8/hr. Oh yeah, and we were caught in this mortgage crisis and had to foreclose on our home.
You have a home, car, job, income, friends, etc……you should not take this for granted. Count your blessings because I would give anything to live the life you live and have the things you have.
November 17th, 2009 at 3:48 pm
Everything that you have written is about severe depression. It doesn’t have anything to do with what you have or don’t have or whether or not you had a lot of sex or no sex in high school. It is none of that these are just reasons and symptoms that you are using and feeling. If you are seeing a psychiatrist your medications are not working for you you need a change. Some will work for one person but not for another. This is disrupting your whole life and your feelings of hopelessness really call for more help. If you would tell your psychiatrist exactly all that you have written here he will understand the severity of what you are suffering. There is help. If your current psyciatrist doesn’t help than it is time to change to another. Sometimes we have to do that. i wish you the best
November 17th, 2009 at 4:43 pm
Stop regretting the past because you can’t change what has already happenned so it is pointless to waste your life brooding. It’s depressing! You have control of the present and the future so take advantage of it and do what you want.
You haven’t been single for more than two weeks?! You don’t need a girlfriend to be happy. In fact, I think relationships create more stress than you need. Don’t get a girlfriend just because you can. That’s so pointless and is a waste of your energy! Try being single. You can have wayyyyyy more fun that way. (no need to be promiscuous. i am not encouraging you to have sex with many people.) Promiscuity is disgusting and will make you hate yourself more instead of making you feel any better.
Depression is caused by stress yes? So just remove uneccessary stress from your life and try to relax. =D
November 17th, 2009 at 4:44 pm
Depression is addressed in section 2, at http://www,ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris See page R first, then male depression, and eventually the rest of section 2. If you had been a promiscuous teen, you probably would have STD’s as a reminder. Treat your depression first, then perhaps go overseas to Africa, or India, and see how people can be happy with extremely little. Things won’t make you happy, at least, not for long. Happiness is addressed in section 18, at ezy build, but is a waste of time viewing, when depressed. Also see stress, burnout, and tension, in section 42. Use those relaxation techniques.
November 17th, 2009 at 5:06 pm
Why do you wish you were promiscuous? Don´t you realize it hurts other people? Do you like to be hurt? Do you like to cry? No. Would you like to inflict that pain onto others?
No, instead, cry. Cry with joy, knowing that by not being promiscuous you are saving a lot of pain to a lot of people.
Thursday July 17, 2003
Jesus
My child, I speak today to all souls who
have fallen away. It is time to come back
to Me now. I call you. You hear My voice
and you know it is I, your Jesus Christ,
who calls out to you. The fact that you
know My voice tells you that you belong to
Me. Because you belong to Me, little soul,
you must return to Me now. I want you to
repent of your sins. Call out to Me and I
will hear you. I will give you exact direction
on how you are to return to the fold.
Dear lost one, I have heard the groaning
of your soul and I am responding to your
pain. The evil one makes war on the souls
of My children and attempts to take them
away. But the enemy offers you nothing.
Only emptiness. You see that now, little
soul, so return to Me. I offer you all that is
beautiful, noble, and eternal. You will
NEVER regret that you came back to Me.
Are you listening? Are you allowing your
poor troubled heart to answer Me? I am
healing you. I wish to heal you even further,
until your soul is as pure as necessary
to enter into My kingdom. Dear
child, do you want to spend eternity with
happiness, with joy in the goodness of others?
I do not refer to the hypocritical
goodness of some of your earthly compan-
ions. That false goodness has disappointed
you in the past and is the source
of some of your bitterness. Fear not. The
light will shine upon that goodness and
expose it for evil. I refer to real goodness
that encompasses all virtue. I speak now
of the virtue of courage, courage in the
face of a world that despises God and all
that is good. My children have been
seduced by the worthless baubles of materialism,
with which they adorn themselves
in an effort to feel valued.
Children, it is My value you must aspire
to and the world does not offer it. This
value comes only from one source. Me.
Jesus Christ. I am the one who died for
you and I intend to save you again. I call
you from the world this day and claim you
for My own. I will protect you from here
on, dear little prodigal soul, and your
sins will be wiped away into nothingness.
This is My promise to you. I will forget
your sins. Come back to Me. You will never
regret that you did this.