How can you convince a psychiatrist or therapist that the abuse you go through is NOT overexaggerated & all in your head/imagined?
Mental health professionals get the idea that I think people are out to get me because of me being abused, mistreated, & hated. My family is VERY unusual & dysfunctional, & they ALL hate me & tell other people to stay away from me. They would threaten me out of my money & beat me up, & when I call the cops, the cops don’t believe me, & they threaten to have ME arrested.
On the other hand, people say I’m naive, gullible, easy target, & vulnerable, & that I put myself in the position to deserve to be abused. So, if that’s the case, wouldn’t you put your guards up to protect yourself if someone is trying to take advantage of you?
This past week, there was a psychiatric nurse who told my insurance company (Medicare) that my Luvox is used for depression with psychotic features. I tried to tell her, “NO! It’s for my OCD.” & she brick walled me with the “talk to the hand” signal. I’ve had problems with this woman before, & I heard that lots of people are traumatized by her.
She BETTER be lying because I TRUSTED my psychiatrist for the 2 yrs. that I’ve known her. Why would the psychiatrist write down “major depression with PSYCHOTIC FEATURES” without telling me?
I suffer OCD, anxiety, Tourette’s & depression, but NO psychosis. I KNOW I AM in touch with reality. She probably gets my anxiety mixed up with paranoia, which my family does. By me being preoccupied or worried about something, that’s an anxiety symptom. I don’t know why they want to mistake anxiety for paranoia or delusions.
I also hear how Bipolar is overused, & doctors are even considering people with depression or UNIpolar, as Bipolar & psychotic. I’ve heard of many cases where people have been wrongfully diagnosed with illnesses, ESPECIALLY MENTAL illness. It’s like, the Dr. throws a certain diagnosis on you & put you on certain meds, based on THEIR opinion of what you have.
I had another Dr. who kept hiding my diagnosis away from me, & come to find out, he gave me a false diagnosis of Bipolar because he was ignorant of Tourette’s, & he mistook my Tourette’s outbursts for MANIA.
I’m having mixed thoughts because I don’t know if that nurse was lying to the insurance company or not. She just wanted to be evil & try to trigger me off to have an outburst so she can get her kicks out of it. My family does that, too.
If I’m considered the scapegoat of my family & outcast of society, & people are very hateful & rude to me & do me dirty, I’m speaking the truth. That DOES happen. If society treats me a certain way (have negative reactions by me being their presence), they figure that I’m fresh meat to take advantage of. I’m 25 with a college degree. People consider me childish because they don’t understand Tourette’s, anxiety, OCD, or depression. So they think I’m weird & treat me like I have a plague. & people always throw in my face, “& you wonder why everyone hates your crazy @$$!”
That’s why I just stay to myself & hardly talk to anyone. I can’t talk to someone without my feelings getting hurt. & YES, people DO treat me like a child & try to control & destroy my life, & they single me out of social events. EX: My father is elderly & he’s dying. If he dies, the family wouldn’t want me @ his funeral.
I’ve been obsessing & worrying a lot, telling myself, “That nurse BETTER be lying!” Because the Dr. never discussed that with me. Why hide a patient’s diagnosis from him/her? & I feel like, if the doctor has something to hide from me, then it’s time for another doctor, right? She has me mainly diagnosed with major depression & anxiety. I don’t see why OCD isn’t on the form I get every visit. & when I walk into her office, 1 of the 1st questions she asks is, “How are your compulsive thoughts?” No. Compulsions are behaviors. NOT thoughts. She should be asking me “How are your OBSESSIVE thoughts?” or “How are your intrusive thoughts”? & the entire session is discussing my OCD, but she doesn’t have that typed on the paper I get. I only see anxiety & depression on my form. I don’t see “psychotic features anywhere”. But she may have written something different on my chart than what she shows me. She’s only been a doctor for 2 yrs.
I’ve been seeing psychiatrists for damn near ALL my life, AND I’ve done plenty of research on my disorders & my medication. So, I KNOW what I’m talking about. What are your thoughts on this? Could the nurse be evil & lying, just to make me angry, or could the Dr. be hiding something from me? If the Dr. IS hiding something, then I need another Dr., right?
November 22nd, 2009 at 9:52 am
Say that you are because psychotic people don’t know their psychotic
November 22nd, 2009 at 10:24 am
The nurse probably has better things to do than lie. It sounds like you are overwhelmed with negative emotions and thoughts. I cant tell you how to run your life, noone can. I think maybe you should try to focus on more up lifting ideas and activities. If your family is so mean to you and you are 25 years od then do your own thing. Take care of your self by doing what makes you happy girl! seriously why are you spending so much energy on everyone elses thoughts? Your grown do your thing and make it positive DESPITE what everyone says , thats the only way to win this one!
November 22nd, 2009 at 10:44 am
You have several questions and issues and are clearly very stressed. I hope you find someone to talk to.
1. The nurse. She was speaking to an insurance company. She was probably trying to get something approved. Sometimes people say “depression with psychotic features” as a way of saying it is really, really bad. She was not concerned about the details and may have been trying to do something that she felt was the best thing for you.
2. Forms. Lots of patients have lots of diagnosis. Only one is needed to get the visit approved. The doctor may only mark the one closest to his pencil.
3. Medicines. Please note that some of the best medications (in my opinion they can often be better than Luvox) for depression, OCD, severe anxiety, etc. can be the newer anti-psychotics like Abilify, Seroquel. Don’t be scared or freak out if your Doctor suggests it.
4. Get some therapy that you can control. I would suggest a book named “Brain Lock” by Schwarz.
November 22nd, 2009 at 11:04 am
I also have OCD, and i have a bit of an opposite problem see its me thinking or worrying that im psychotic and the doctors assuring me im not. I alsways obsess over illness both physical and mental that i dont have. Unfortunalty some people in the world still believe that someone with depression or an anxiety disorder cant or doesnt know whats going on. Those people are cruel and ignorant. having a mental illness doesnt make us stupid. Thats all part of the stigma and discrimination that surrounds mental illness. if you are seeing hallucinations(not just having thoughts of it) then i would say to listen to that nurse a bit. but from what you’ve said you seem to know what psychosis is and able to tell the difference. And yeah abuse from your past can and does make you more paranoid and anxious about things later on in life, but thats not unusual at all so they shouldnt blame all those problems just on your past, especially if your still in contact with people that hurt you.
Doctors shouldn’t hide a diagnoses from you. i always ask mine to explain everything to me. having ocd and intrusive thoughts may be confused as depression with psychotic features, to someone who doesnt know what they’re talking about. anyone who has done a little research on it would be able to tell the difference, and that its OCD and not psychoticness. A couple of my disorders arent typed on my paper either, though i think thats cause my doc hasnt updated it in a while. Dont let these people get you down, if you’re still in touch with reality and can tell the difference than your not psychotic, despite intrusive and disturbing thoughts(cause thats a whole other thing) Good luck with everything!